How are you doing? I hope you’re all having a great day! I am, so why not talk about things I don’t like about myself? Am I right? I think this is the right time. So let’s do it!!!!!!
So I’ve been thinking about this for a while and one night I thought it would be a good idea for a post, why not?
Because everybody at some point when they’re in bed, these thoughts about like, things you should’ve done or said or shouldn’t have done or said como te your mind. And for me, many of them have to do with the fact that I’m shy.
Because I remember one day in which 2 awkward situations happened.
Before you read, JUST TO CLARIFY, I’m shy, but I’m not like, extremely shy, ok? I say hi to people, if I need to go to someone and ask them something or ask them for something, I’ll do it. Also, I can say I don’t have an awful time doing class presentations, which terrifies many of my classmates, and most are extroverts.
Ok so we were in a little concert they did in school, which was really cool cause the peeps were playing the violin and it was real fun. So at some point the music teacher would tell us to stand up and clap and stuff, and one of those moments, I didn’t tell I had to stand up. And one friend gave me her hand and told me to get up like all cheery and stuff.
I was just like: Oh And just stood up. I noticed I didn’t take her hand, which must have been really rude. I don’t wanna justify this, but I was so like in my head that I process that information, does that make sense?
Few hours later, I was going to history class, which I thought was in my classroom, so when I went upstairs, there was no one there, and next to my class is the Philosophy departament, in which my philosophy teacher was. The door was open.
When I was walking towards my class, the teacher said: uh? I supposed he wanted to know who was there or something, so I walked in front of the door, so he could see me. He saw me and said: oh. Meanwhile, I saw that no one was in my class and turned away. This all happened in one second. In that second he also said hello Ana, but I was already walking out of there.
I felt really awkward because I didn’t say anything back, and again, I’m not trying to justify this in any way, but it all happened in one second and also I was walking away when he said hi and he said it in a tone which I could barely hear and blah blah…
I’m probably boring you a lot at this point, so thank you if you’re still reading. 😅
The thing is, my brain always gets like shocked for some reason, like I don’t know what to do and I end up like, seeming dead, or something.
Why does this happen? I don’t know, I’m not a neurologyst, ok? But there’s one thing I know, I always say to myself not to let that happen in the future. Yet it keeps happening. Why?? 😭😭
Also, I’m 16, like, dude, I think I’m old enough to get better at this. What’s more, I should be over this from like, a long time ago!
Cause if you think about it, people at 16 many years ago got married and had lots of kids, were they shy and awkward like this? 16 is the legal age to work in some countries, and I gonna be this shy when I get my first job? 16 *at least in Spain* is the legal age to have sex with an adult.
I’m not saying I want to have sex at all nor I’m saying you shouldn’t be shy to have sex *it makes a lot of sense though, unless it’s rape… let’s continue!*, all I’m saying is at this age we should have a certain level of maturity and I’m still here not being able to overcome my shyness.
- Don’t have sex just like that, let alone if you’re not an adult *Idk why this is point number one, when the main topic of this post isn’t sex, anyway, I had to say it*
- Don’t let your shyness come to a point where people think you’re acting rude when it’s just shyness.
- Try not to obsess over negative thoughts as much as you can, try fixing the problem and that’s all.
Share your thoughts with me!
Are you shy? Were you shy? How do you deal with it? Are there any situations that keep you up at night? What do you think of my stories? Tell me in the comments!
I hope you liked this post as much as I liked making it! I would like to rant her more often, you know? I also hope you have an amazing day/night wherever you are! Stay awesome!