Me in 20 Years?

HI GUYS!

How are ya peeps? Ma peeps? M I going crazy? Maybe! I’m just super happy because I’m listening to music as I’m writing, so sorry if I say stupid things in this post. Consider yourself warned! Nah just kidding.

So today I was thinking about being a teenager and that I’m growing up and someday I’ll go to college and then graduate and then start working and be independent and make money and argh… All that sounds super hard! Is it just me?

Just thinking about that makes me feel a little insecure because it’s somehow like starting from scratch. Lemme explain it: Starting to work, making money to pay the rent and also making money to buy a house… Paying your own food, your clothes… I don’t know, like my biggest fear is to not be able to be self-dependent and not having money. I don’t mind living with my parents or anything, but I don’t want them to save my butt all the time, I also wanna give them money when I get a good job.

I DON’T WANNA BE BROKE!!

Like I’m still 13 but I think about it all the time since I was 11! That was a long time ago! Well not that much but you know. I guess that’s all we think about when we’re teenagers. I’m gonna miss my teenage years in the future, everybody tells us so.

*I’m somehow like Peter Pan, like I don’t wanna grow up, ever*

Because growing up and becoming an adult is a very frequent topic right now in our life (if you’re a teenager or a kid, maybe). Everybody talks to me about that, my family, my teachers, my friends… It’s everywhere! Leave me alone for a second!

Also, everybody talks about getting married and having children. Like lemme have a job and then I’ll think about that! Don’t you think?

Ok I hope to have the opportunity to marry a good guy and have children and raise them. It’s not a priority, like I ain’t gonna marry just anyone and have children just cause I ain’t wanna be alone. If I have the opportunity, yeah cool! But if I don’t, then cool too! Like it’s not mandatory, being single ain’t bad, not having children ain’t bad either. Like I hope to, but it’s ok if that ain’t happen.

I just wanna have what I need to make a living. That’s all I want and ask for. *Well, actually I wanna be a millionaire when I grow up but I didn’t wanna sound too…idk, self-exigent (does that word even exist?)* 

But you know what? Even though I’m scared, I also kinda wanna grow up and be independent and not being a child. It kinda makes me feel good the idea of having a job and getting money, It would make me look like a responsible mature person which I think I’m not. I wanna have a cool job!

Somehow I wanna stop being a child and dealing with all those things we children/teens have to deal with: having to stay away every time adults are talking about certain things, not being able to watch certain movies, not being able to do certain things…

*Also because I have a crush on my hot teacher (which means he’s an adult, of course) makes me feel too child-ish. I don’t like it when he calls us kids. It’s like calling us stupid even thought he doesn’t mean it. I don’t know, makes me feel frustrated to be too young compared to him. But he’s just a crush, it’ll go someday. So I don’t give it much importance, I like being a teen.*

But right now I’m happy I ain’t an adult. That’s too much work! For now I’m just a 13 year old teenager who has few responsibilities and I’m happy about that! I try to not think about it too much. I just felt like I had to share these things with you guys today!

What do you think about the future? Do you wanna grow up? What do you want to do? Does it scare you? Do you often think about it? Too many questions? I hope you guys enjoyed this post because idk I just hope you liked it!! Hope you also have a great day!

BYE GUYS!

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